Positive Light

name: Trish

date entered: 08/08/2006

country: Australia

story:

Before motherhood I was a work-a-holic, shopping legend, party animal with a goal to travel to as many countries as often as possible (OS 6 times in two years!). Just before I got pregnant, my father became gravely ill, which totally rocked my world. It was at this point in which I had a huge life reassessment and wicked self indulgent ways came to an end. I saw that life itself was now the gift, not all of those things which I once found so important. My pregnancy was bitter sweet, as I was watching my beautiful father get sicker and loosing his fight for life, while I was growing a new life inside of me. Against the odds, my father lived to meet his grandson but to my devastation, died shortly afterwards. I miss my dad terribly and am sure that I would have totally fallen apart had I not had a little person to rely on me. My baby is my positive light which gives so much happiness for me and my gorgeous supportive husband. There are those days when I miss the excitement, personal time, interaction & money of my old life. Going from a clever career girl to the ‘changing nappies house maid’ is a big change, but the ‘sense of whole’ and personal joy I get from my little baby is something which I would not swap for any massive salary package offered. I know that my identity is not lost - it is just in the process of being reinvented into a new and better model.

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